REALITY
I’ve been missing you all. Been missing the relationship retoric of The Kajuana show. Missing the humor of X and the level headedness of Golden. I’ve been missing That Damn Wise Diva and the agreement that comes with what Actually Happens. I’ve been missing that Atomic Code and Ghetto Intelligence. I’ve especially been missing L.
It hasn’t been that I wasn’t in the mood to blog. I really am. And it’s not that I’m bored. I’m really not. And it’s not that I have nothing to say. I’m chock full of thoughts. What I think it really has been is that I’ve been going through one of the most vulnerable times in my life quite recently. I’ve been a ball of raw emotion. And I’ve been trying to deal with suppressing some shit. Between the fights with my bestfriend (which, by now, should obviously be sounding like an abusive relationship), my period of introspection, my decision to rid myself of people that are very dear to me, but hazardous to my direct goals for the future, my rollercoasting feelings for someone, juxtaposed by my recurring urge to sabotage those feelings, and my increased solitude, I’ve just not been able to stick to one steady stream of consciousness as I write.